sink under.
There could be fog
Or maybe just a mist
And inexplicably I'll fade to white
Vanish, and be gone
Or it could be night
And I'll be darkly dressed,
Evading easy definition
And as your eye's distracted
By a falling leaf
I'll merge with restless shadows
And be gone
Then you will discover
What emptiness is
A space so hollow
Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing
So intense
A lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless than the last
Until your heart cries out,
A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing
Ashen silence where I used to sing
And deafness
The howl must strike the right resonant frequency
A wail that echoes all to the ends of time
To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths
From the well of your soul, such loneliness
To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame
In their convivial packs
Then, only then
Might you detect my footprints, indistinct
Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath
in the cold, dawn air
You must utter
A howl so desolate, it
Jerks you from your sleep
To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how
Close you were to the brink
Of the abyss
And know what missing is
And hold me.
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the livin one.
JEWW.
taurus.
ball thru the hoop is my game
OUTDOORS and clubs.
APPLOGIST
EMOTIONS.
talking, laughing, loving, breathing,
fighting, fcuking, crying, drinking,
writing, winning, losing, cheating,
kissing, thinking, dreaming.
LIST
suspenders
overolls
convrse bball shoes
timberland baggg
braunbuffel wallet
adidas sbs
adidas jacket
ipod video
MACbook pro
limegreen G-shock watch
adidas cap
DUN HAVE MY SIZE! ):
havanas sandles
E.A / adidas shades
black blazer with white strips
clothes pls :)
Thursday, March 16, 2006
TP Test today..
I FAILED.
sighs.. the parts where i felt that was okie wasnt.. the parts where i felt dat wasnt okie was okie?!?! wth. the next test date will be next month.. it seems so far away.. i cant wait to get my license actually.. coz if i dun get it soon.. i have a feeling ill be lazy to try to get it? im a lazybum. i need more practiceeee.. somebody pls remind me bout dat..
im in school slackin now.. im doing IHP for my this semester~ =] first few days qt slack i suppose.. we're just waiting for time to reach 4.30 den ull see everyone smiling n leavin the room.. haha. typical of us. anw im stockin up my drawers! haha.. we're given drawers each to put anythg we wannnn... im gonna put lotsa food! haha healthy food i hope if not ull probably see a supersize me next month.. :)
DXO tonight.. i hafta learn to restrain n control myself..
everytime i looked at you..
you just seem to be gettin more n more outta reach..
why do i feel so helpless n restless..
thinkin bout you relentlessly..
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